Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I need to do some serious anaylizing! Here's the deal, I do a fabulous job of keeping my calorie budget in check during the day. I am very concious of what I am taking in and how many calories are in each thing. But then, I come home....

It seems that I''ve become something that I'm not nor have I ever been. I eat ALL EVENING LONG! I have never done this, at least not that I'm aware of. But I've been doing it all week! I don't know what has happened to create this Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde type persona that I have taken on.

I am a very analytical person by nature and I am racking my brain trying to figure this out. Am I bored? Is this stress eating? Am I feeling deprived? Am I eating just because the food is here? I don't know and it's driving me crazy. Jack Sh*t mentioned this in his interview with Sean Anderson yesterday. He said that the thing that scares him the most is not knowing why you fight so hard to lose the weight and then you turn around and go crazy. I put in all that I have to be good all day long and not overeat and then I go to the Y and work out as hard as I can and then I come home and throw it all away. A full day's work for nothing. Amber Anderson put a cute little saying in her blog, "Tough cookies don't crumble." I feel like I'm a tough cookie that gets dipped in milk everyday.

Maybe I should find something to stay busy while I'm home at night. I've toyed with the idea of getting rid of all the food in the house and going to the store daily and only buying what is needed for the evening. Perhaps I should just not come home until bedtime. Maybe I have a more serious problem than I thought. I don't know. I know this has to stop and it needs to stop today! I can't keep this up. It is very self destructive behavior and I already know that it is leading down a horrible path.

I will do some serious thinking on this issue today, perhaps some research, and let you know what I've decided to do about it.

3 comments:

  1. It could be all of the above...Something to think about that is for sure...
    I love you myRach...Heres something tht may cheer you, I should be off on your B-day...so we could spend it together if you wanna...YEAH!!!
    Love you!!! You will figure this out and you will overcome and put a stop to it,i know you will and I know you can!!!
    love always,
    Irene xoxoxox

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  2. Rach, evening eating can be such a bear! One thing Dr. Phil used to say (and I'm not a Dr. Phil groupie, but he *does* have some useful stuff!) is that the easiest way to break a bad habit is to replace it with something incompatible. So if you're trying to quit smoking, you need to do something that doesn't allow you to smoke. Same with night-time eating - replace the eating with something incompatible, like walking, doing your nails, knitting, chewing gum, talking with a friend, writing your blog, cleaning house, taking a bath, etc.

    Of course, you still have to make the CHOICE to do one of your replacement activities, but once you do, resisting the urge to eat mindlessly will definitely decrease.

    Also, think about saving a few calories for an evening snack if that's what your body is craving. A good system might be a large, healthy breakfast, a medium-sized lunch, a small dinner, and 3 small snacks throughout the day.

    Finally, stock ONLY healthy foods that are high-volume/low-calorie, so that when you ARE tempted to eat, you can limit the damage. Think carrot sticks, air popped popcorn, celery, sugar snap peas, broccoli, low-point soup, etc.

    Good luck!

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  3. Hi Rach - I often also struggle with evening eating. Wondered if it would help you to do a food and mood diary for the evenings - not judging, just assessing - e.g. writing down what food you ate, how you felt emotionally, how you felt physically.
    This helped me as I realised that I was eating when I felt emotionally upset or just bored!

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