Melissa and I met at the Y in the morning, just as planned. We worked out. Was I happy with the workout? Yes and no. ANY workout is a good one in my opinion. Do something, anything, everyday. Well, this was something. I walked on the treadmill for only 30 minutes. (Pause for a moment of reflection...I just realized that only a few weeks ago, I was walking 10 minutes on the treadmill, weights, then walking 15, and I was more than happy with that... just 25 minutes on the treadmill. Hmmm.) Anyhow, we weren't sure how long it would take to shower and get ready there, so we quit 30 minutes in and went downstairs. I was ok with 30, but I wanted more. I'm sort of getting used to walking a full hour. It feels good to do so and anything less just doesn't seem like enough anymore. At any rate, we had a better idea of how long it took to get ready and get to work. Hindsight tells us that if we got there 15 minutes earlier, we could feasibly work out for an hour, and still be able to make it to work on time.
So here it is, 6:30 in the morning, and I am not at the YMCA... why? It's storming outside. Melissa called me just before 6:00 and asked that we forgo the workout until this afternoon. She, nor I, wanted to brave the lightening to go get in our vehicles.
Here lately, I have been so positive. My attitude about everything has been just great. I struggled with that yesterday. I don't know why exactly. Maybe the steroids were making my attitude suck. Perhaps it's situational. I am hoping it wasn't the morning workout that did it. Maybe it's those around me with poor outlooks and attitudes rubbing off on me. Whatever it was, I hope it's gone, because I can't afford not to be positively charged anymore. A negative attitude is a path straight back to my old way of living. Not caring about what I ate or whether or not I worked out. My give a sh*t has truly been broke for so long now, that I fear if it breaks again, I won't be able to fix it.
So here's to a new day. One full of positive thoughts, feeling and actions. Let's do this!
Rachel
Setelah Shalat Istikharah
4 months ago
Hi Rachel
ReplyDeleteI think there will be times on our journey when there'll be a negative day - can't always even identify why. Could be biology, situation, weather, tiredness, or just life ! Sorry you had one of those days yesterday but I think you have reframed this really well as a positive chance to make a difference and have a new attitude. Wishing you a great day !
This journey contains many ups and downs. Maintaining your resolve...holding on as tight as you can no matter what comes your way---it's something I've had to do often. But if I let every stressful or negative day derail me...I would have abandoned this thing several months ago. Take the good with the bad--and make sure you remind yourself what you're doing is the most important thing and life can send sh*tty attitudes, negativity, stressful everything and anything your way----But it will not break your journey---it will not steal this away from you. You're making this the time you do it for real...This is it Rach---
ReplyDeleteMy best always--Love ya all,
Sean