About The Delay...

I would like to apologize for the delay in postings. I have been soooo overwhelmingly tired here the last few days. I've been decreasing my prednisone, and physiologically, it's been wiping me out. Steroid use affects the adrenal glands. The adrenal glands are part of the network that controls hunger, fatigue, sodium secretion, cortisol release, etc. My adrenal glands are trying to catch back up to functioning independently without the steroids and they have really been doing me in. My workout Friday was what I would call pathetic. I could only walk 1/2 mile, and it was at a fairly slow speed, and that took all the energy I had in me. My workout Saturday was nonexistent. I am still quite tired today, but today is the first day that I am completely prednisone free. It will take a couple of days to be up and running like I should be. I can't wait for that day. I am tired of feeling so exhausted and I'm tired of fighting a hunger spurred by the use of steroids. I am ready to be back on track...

So... weigh day was today. I have to say that it has taken me all day to work up the nerve to post today. Last weeks weight was 246. Today's weight, 253. That is a 7 pound gain. Now I know that physiologically speaking, I would have to have eaten about 30,000 calories this week to have actually gained that much weight; and that's without working out. I know that I had an awesome workout 3 out of 5 days last week The other 2 days, I walked at least a 1/2 mile. So I am battling with this weigh day number. From a medical standpoint, the only thing that could cause that much weight gain in that short of an amount of time is water weight gain due to sodium retention. That makes sense with the steroid use. But it doesn't keep me from beating myself up over the number. I am truly disappointed and I have no choice but to wait until next week to find out if not taking the medicine will make any difference.

I know that I am not going to give up, even though I felt like it this morning. All I could tell myself is "What's the use? You've done all you can and you still gained." But I know better than that. I'm a nurse. I know what certain medicines do to you and I know that things will be better without those nasty steroids. I was dreading them from the beginning because I knew it would be a battle, but you never know how it will feel until that day comes. That day was today and it felt horrible!

Tomorrow is another day. Tomorrow will be good.